I am Thankful that He is so faithful and loving

You know Some times it seems that when "it rains it pours". And the Bible says that "it rains on both the just and the unjust". Well, I seem to be feeling a lot of rain right now. There is so much that the Lord is working on right now and I am feeling a little overwhelmed! We are trying to find a church that we can worship and serve. I am trying to support my husband and follow his lead. The Lord has answered a lot of prayers rather suddenly. I don't know that I am quite ready for all the change that He is being about all at once. My husband, who I know loves the Lord, has been away for awhile, but is back full force! It's a praise that he wants to go to a good God-worshipful church. But finding one that he is happy with is hard. Now there is my mom. She has struggled with mental-illness for 2 years. I have felt, at least, that she has struggled through them. I've been praying that my dad would be able to see it and help her. Well, the Lord has answered my prayers! He can't deny the need to get her help now. I never would have thought that the answer would be in a form that is SO HARD to accept. I just praise God that she didn't hurt herself or anyone else.
I am trying to remember that He is the one in control. NOT ME!! I don't have to be the one to do the "fixing" or to "take the blame" for not being there enough. God says that I should cast my cares on him. I have to look for my rest in Him. I am going to have to keep things in perspective of that. The Lord knows my mom, He loves her more then I do. He is probably grieving for her torment just as I do. He doesn't enjoy the pain that she's going through. How much His Spirit must be fighting for her as we speak! But at the same time He is testing her with fire (not litterly!). I guess well just have to see how she comes out on the other side.

I am especially touched today by the words of a song written by Ben and Robin Pasley of 100 portraits called "Faithful":

Chores is as fallows:

Faithful, you are Faithful
I have found nothing but good in Your heart
Loving you are loving
I am in love with the way that you are
Thankful, I am thankful
I have been running away on my own
and the you found me
Oh, how you loved me
I know you'll never leave, leave me alone!


OH how wonderful to know that he is faithful to me even when I'm not very faithful. He's loving to me when I'm not very lovable and I am so very thankful that with all my faults and in all my struggles He has never left me alone!!

This song has really spoken out to me. It is talking about how the last ones shall be first and the first shall be last. I was watching T.V. the other night about how this family has something like 25 kids (not sure on the number) But almost all of them were special needs kids. This Christian couple felt lead to adopt these kids. They didn't foster them but actually BECAME these kids Mom and Dad! Wow! What a sacrifice that God asked of them! An' People give people like me a hard time with having 6! I can't imagine the grief their "Christian" friends gave them!

The Last Ones

Matthew West

My friend Taylor she's an angel
Ten years old and beautiful
She's a living, breathing miracle
And she proves it everyday
'Cause the odds were stacked against her from the day that she arrived here
And the doctors told her mom and dad she'd always be that way
And I confess when I first met her
I was thinking life's not fair
But then she wrapped her arms around my neck
And it all became so clear

God bless the last ones

One day Taylor sent me a picture from her Special Olympics race
And I could tell just by the looks of it she was coming in last place
But she crossed that finish line with a smile upon her face as if to say

God bless the last ones

Maybe the last ones are the lucky ones
The ones who got this whole thing figured out
'Cause when they go looking for something beautiful
They start looking from the inside out

On our way into the restaurant we passed a homeless man
He was half drunk and half asleep with a paper cup in his hand
And I confess when I first saw him I was thinking life's not fair
But then Taylor reached out and wrapped her arms around his neck
And it all became so clear

God bless the last ones

I wish we could all be the lucky ones
The ones who've got this whole thing figured out
Maybe the next time we go looking for beautiful we'll try looking from the inside out

God bless the last ones

Lil' 'bout me!!

I am a mom of 6! I am recently pursuing the idea of cutting out the refined sugars from our diet. So far so good! I have had a few failures but more then enough successes and have seen the benefits of the sugar free lifestyle! I have been a Christian for 16 years. I have had the privilege of sitting under, in my opinion, some of the best preaching I ever could have asked for. I believe that God the Creator, God the Son and God the Holy Spirit are one. That while we all deserve eternal damnation, we have available the gift of eternal life through Christ our Lord. Having been chosen before the foundation of the Earth, little Christs are to follow His example and preach the gospel to the world. We are to wait for His coming. Being ever ready to give account for Christ. To not be ashamed of the Gospel of Christ. I have been married to a hard working Christian man for 15 years. He is truly the only one that could put up with me! God has also blessed me with 6 beautiful children that I am extremely proud of. I can't wait to see how they grow up and what they do with their lives!